I don't know how to title this one. Obviously.
In the midst of a flood of worries, I find myself worrying about unimportant things such as Facebook "friends". This particular person that has me annoyed I did meet - and I do care for, but she has this way of disappearing from my feed not commenting on anything but still, I see her comments on many posts. Why do I notice? Because I care about her and she just disappears. I need to let it go she isn't worth my time, yet it hurts me. It is also ironic due to this woman's personal circumstances but that is not my story to tell.
As much as I don't want to confront her, I want an explanation. Why do I need to right wrongs? I call out people on their bullshit and that doesn't make me very popular. For example, when someone states they invented the Nabisco ice cream cake - really? For reals? Why do I care? Because I can't fix anything in my own world so I must call out a douche canoe when he is complaining that pure extract tastes fake but uses mixes and cans like he is on Chopped and the 10K depends on it.
I blame all of this on my screwed up parents for always shutting me down. I always have to be the good one. If I am not good, I'll have to spend the weekend in a dark room and I can't face that room again. When people do these ghosting behaviors, I am in that dark room again.
I don't think there is enough therapy in the world to fix this flaw in me - it is so ingrained from years of silence. So now as an adult, I can't ignore the bullshit.
Oprah says to tell your truth. Girl, I'm telling it.
2018 is the year of letting things and people go. 2018 is the year of the half-full glass.
In the midst of a flood of worries, I find myself worrying about unimportant things such as Facebook "friends". This particular person that has me annoyed I did meet - and I do care for, but she has this way of disappearing from my feed not commenting on anything but still, I see her comments on many posts. Why do I notice? Because I care about her and she just disappears. I need to let it go she isn't worth my time, yet it hurts me. It is also ironic due to this woman's personal circumstances but that is not my story to tell.
As much as I don't want to confront her, I want an explanation. Why do I need to right wrongs? I call out people on their bullshit and that doesn't make me very popular. For example, when someone states they invented the Nabisco ice cream cake - really? For reals? Why do I care? Because I can't fix anything in my own world so I must call out a douche canoe when he is complaining that pure extract tastes fake but uses mixes and cans like he is on Chopped and the 10K depends on it.
I blame all of this on my screwed up parents for always shutting me down. I always have to be the good one. If I am not good, I'll have to spend the weekend in a dark room and I can't face that room again. When people do these ghosting behaviors, I am in that dark room again.
I don't think there is enough therapy in the world to fix this flaw in me - it is so ingrained from years of silence. So now as an adult, I can't ignore the bullshit.
Oprah says to tell your truth. Girl, I'm telling it.
2018 is the year of letting things and people go. 2018 is the year of the half-full glass.
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